“Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
— Romans 8: 26-28 (The Message)
I was diagnosed early in my childhood with a speech disorder in which my sounds, syllables, and words were repeated or prolonged, disrupting my normal flow of speech. I found much victory and joy in overcoming this, but it still remains with me today. Although this has had many challenges and difficulties, it compared to nothing I would face later on in life.
I am married with four children: Meran, Jameson, Sutton and Bellen. My beautiful wife Britton was breast-feeding our new born Bellen and she felt lumps and bumps and we just associated them with breast-feeding.
We thought that something was wrong…and we hoped with everything that it was not breast cancer…but now we are at where we are at.
October 2011 my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer. Our family was about to embark upon an unfamiliar road - - not only a relocation, new job, new school, but this as well. At first it was pretty unbelievable that this was happening to my family, but we were willing to fight this to the bitter end. The cancer went into remission for some time, but then came back in May 2014 and my wife Britton was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. It had returned but now to several places in her body.
A battle with cancer can be a very private thing. It takes a toll on both mind and body but we decided to share about our journey in a public way as a way of staying courageous and hopeful. We decided that by making our struggle known others could hope, learn and struggle with us.
I accepted Jesus and made him Lord of my life at the very young age of 5. In this season I had a choice to make and that was to trust deeply Jesus and entrust my wife and family completely over to Him. Additionally, through my quiet time in the Scriptures, Jesus was speaking to me and saying that I needed to take this head on. In the days ahead I found peace from Him and was not scared. This was just a step in the journey and I am going to make a difference because of it.
Having a wife that is fighting cancer doesn’t stop life. I look forward to going to work. I look forward to coming to church. I look forward to game days seeing my kids compete. I look forward to seeing my friends and family and my church - - who has been so supportive.
This has happened because Jesus lives in me and what he began in me at the young age of 5 has continued on and developed me into the person I am today. What we have endured as a family is testimony to the work of Jesus in our lives – our mental strength and ability to look past any diagnosis and not letting it interfere with what God has purposed for our lives.
Cancer has a way of focusing on self and prioritizing what is really important. At this time nothing has been more important than the support of family and friends.
If you don’t have hope you don’t have anything. Jesus gives us the hope that is everlasting.
I have learned that toughness isn’t so much about muscle. It’s the toughness of the soul that matters most. Having endured the struggle, I will forever remind others not to dwell on the misery, but rather think of the beauty that remains.
If you have not given your life to Jesus Christ, He is the hope, the answer, and the remedy. He is waiting for you.
Jason currently serves as the Rock Church’s Associate Campus Pastor at Point Loma. Jason supports Family Ministries, which includes: College, Young Adults, Marriage, Men’s Women’s and Military. He and his wife Britton (who he is crazy about) have four kids (who are crazy about their dad). His wife, Britton, blogs frequently at nicetobeaneese.blogspot.com